Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Of Beauty and Monsters - Prologue

Prologue


Pictland, Fall 793

The dry autumn leaves cracked under the bare feet of the woman who ran through the forests as though the Barghest was nipping at her heels and spurring her forward.

She reached the land of the Kernow under the cover of darkness, cloaked in shadowy robes and trembling in fear. How she had managed to escape when so many of her people had not was beyond her understanding. The Deirans had to be pursuing her still, though she had traveled far from her homelands to the north.

If it had been any other time, she would have stood her ground and fought off these southern invaders, she would have died with her people – with her beloved husband. But she could not, not in this battle.

This is why she had made her way, on foot, to the land of Margh Kernowyon, the child-king of the Kernow. She hurried forward; weaving through the trees, hiding in the shadows and praying to the Goddess Mother that she could reach the sanctuary of Margh’s hall in time.

Suddenly, a soldier of the Deiran burst out of the brush, sword drawn and prepared to kill her then and there. With a swift war cry, he raised his blade and brought it down across her back in one fell swoop, carving a rather large gash from her left hip to her right shoulder.

She cried out and unsheathed the dirk that had been hidden in her boot, slipping in forcefully into the Deiran’s torso – between the ribs and into his lung.

He coughed and blood spurted out from his mouth. He let out a gurgling sob and collapsed, writhing around for a moment longer before expiring.

She breathed a heavy sigh of relief and replaced the blood-blackened dirk before she continued on her way to the sanctuary that was the hall of Margh Kernowyon – the only place she knew she could be safe.

It was the first glimmering rays of the sun that heralded her arrival to the lands of Margh Kernowyon. She stood at the edge of the forest, debating the possible ways to cross the open field that surrounded the great hall without being ambushed.

Finally, she decided to risk all for this one chance at freedom and broke into a sprint, running at full speed to the great wooden doors – her robes fanning out around her.

She reached the hall of Margh Kernowyon – the huge wooden fortress and the walls that protected a small village of peasants who pledged their allegiance to the Lord and the land.

She slammed her fists against the wooden, splinters embedding themselves in the flesh of her hands. “Margh! Margh Kernowyon! I beg of you, sanctuary!”

She began to lose consciousness and the wall of the great hall was the only thing that stopped her from collapsing.

One of the sentinels opened the doors and saw a woman, who was badly wounded, leaning against the outer walls. She looked half dead.

He quickly ushered her inside with the help of several men and called for his Lord, “Margh! Margh! There is a woman!”

The fair-haired young Lord looked at woman, instantly recognizing her as coming from the north – a fact he noted by the blue ink marking she bore on her face, near her temples and cheeks.

In her arms, she clutched a sleeping babe.

She coughed, opening her brown eyes and looking upon Margh fondly, “Margh Kernowyon, please – care for my son.”

Margh took the small dark-haired child in his arms and noted that he, too, was marked with similar markings as his mother. Looking back at the wounded woman, the child king nodded, “I shall, benen.”


Sunday, May 17, 2009

Just a little something....

Obi-Wan groaned in pain and hobbled onto the awaiting transport behind his Master, Qui-Gon Jinn, who had also been scuffed up in the skirmish they had survived only by the skin on their teeth.

Once they were both safely aboard the transport ship - named the Sen Shakal - the long-haired Jedi Master turned to face hiss young Padawan.

"You are okay, I take it?" his deep commanding voice asked, not harshly, but out of sincere concern- almost paternal in manner - for his young ward and apprentice.

The young Padawan lifted his tunic and revealed to his Master the burn from a blaster gun on his torso, in between the bottom of his ribcage and the top of his right hipbone. He had already kicked off his boots and so, with great pain, he bent forward and showed the Jedi Master the second blaster burn on the outer part of his left calf.

"Master, I think we've done better, wouldn't you say?"

Qui-Gon nodded, showing the bruising on his ribcage and the blaster burns on the upper part of his left arm.

Within moments the medic droids were in to inspect their wounds. For this the two Jedi thanked their lucky stars.

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Obi-Wan returned to the Jedi Temple with his Master that evening and he was so shaken up. He had made his jokes and had his moments early with Qui-Gon on the transport but now he realized truly that he and his Master both could have died on that system and what would have happened then?

So he limped sorely into the Temple apartment corridors and gently rapped on the door of Siri Tachi, his closest friend, hoping that she would answer his calls.

She did, sleepy and her blond hair disheveled. But she was wide awake when she saw that it was a wounded Obi-Wan Kenobi at her door.

"Obi-Wan! What happened to you? Force almighty, come in."

He hobbled inside and slumped onto the edge of her bed, waiting for the burning of his wounds to calm down before he spoke to her. He lowered his head onto his awaited palms and rubbed his eyes out of frustration.

"Siri, Qui-Gon and I- we almost died today on Kiffex. We were attacked by rogue Kiffar bandits."

She sighed, "Oh, Obi, you're all right, though, aren't you?"

He smiled, "Well yes, of course. These physical wounds will heal. I just thought, while we were fighting those bandits, what it would be like to die so far away from the Temple and the Jedi Council. I was scared, Siri."

She put her finger to his lips, "Don't be scared. Master Yoda says that death is only the soul fully cleaving to the Force and forever being apart of it."

The youthful and stern Padawan groaned, slamming his palm against his thigh - which sent shockwaves of pain throughout his body- and crying out, "Siri, don't quote Master Yoda! I know the Jedi Code. But I wasn't scared of dying. I never have been particularly afraid of death. I was scared of dying without getting to see you, without saying the things I need to say."

The blond girl sighed, looked down at her bare feet, "Obi-Wan, what're you talking about?"

He smiled sadly, leaning forward to be closer to her, to see into her blue-green eyes and to read her soul's reactions, "Siri. You are my dearest friend. My closest, my most trustworthy friend. And all I could think of on Kiffex was what would happen if I couldn't tell you..."
She looked up briefly, but shook her head, her blond hair tossing back and forth with the motions, "Obi-Wan." There was a certain sternness in her voice that made the young man beside her pause.
But he knew he had to make her understand that he truly cared for her and the best time for that would be now.
He leaned forward- calmly, gently - and Siri watched, paralyzed, with concern as he bent down and brushed his lips against hers with his whispered, "I love you, Siri Tachi."
She shook her head ever-so-slightly, trembling from the nerves as she shakily tucked a blond hair behind her ears, "You know that's impossible. It could never happen. Not within the Jedi. I- I think you should retire to your apartment now, Obi."
He smiled sadly, his own blue-green eyes gleaming in adoration at her, "As you wish." With great pain, he rose to his feet and hobbled to the door.
As he crossed the threshhold, he turned around to face the girl he loved, folding his arms into the sleeves of his flowing Jedi cloak, "I'm sorry to have barged in on you."
She nodded, looking at him from around the edge of the door, "Good night, Obi." Without waiting for another word of explanation, she closed the door and Obi-Wan was left to walk alone back to his apartment.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

FUCK THIS

I'm so fucking angry and confused.
I come up and say "hi" and all of the sudden, I'm the root of all evil.
Because she wanted me to go to prom and busted her ass trying to get me stuff for prom, so that means I'm so fucking selfish.
Then I threw the Mothers' day card at her - I totally didn't throw anything at her!

So all this started with "hi" and me wanting some fucking leftovers that Dad will definitely neglect in lieu of making some chili-and-chips or something.
This is fucking bullshit, what did I do!
I didn't fucking treat my mom like shit, I didn't do anything!
Maybe everyone is right, maybe it is good that the school year is over.
I just wish I could move away from here then - since I'm so selfish and mean.
Fuck it. I just won't have dinner this week at all.
That way Dad can eat everything.
Cuz, you know, he's 42 fucking years old and can't make himself fucking dinner!
You know what- I'm done with this shit.
Out.

Monday, March 30, 2009

A New Day

I'm back...
Well, as of late I've been somewhat bipolar.
I was really really happy the other day. Like the same high that I'd get when I was first dating the numbnuts.

And it was for no real reason.

I don't know, I was just very happy and I was like "Why all of the sudden?"
But I'm happy with it.

Friday, December 26, 2008

New Year's Resolution.

Bottom Line (well this is the top line, but bite me...) : Drop some belly flab.
  1. I will go for a walk/jog/run every Tuesday and Thursday from my house around the loop and down the hill (~1 to 1.5 mile).
  2. Also, I will strive to make many more small movements throughout the day (e.g. leaving during sixth maybe 2 times a week to go for a walk with Brant and Dana) to boost Calorie burning.
  3. I will take up some weight lifting.
  4. Also, if I get munchies or feel like boredom eating, I will drink more water and ask myself if I am really hungry or just bored. If I'm not truly starving, I'll go for a run.
  5. If I do delve into devilishly bad for me foods I will go for a run immediately after.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Goals & Dieting stuffs.

Ok, it's set.

Starting on Monday September the 22nd, I will limit my red meat intake. I will try to only eat chicken, fish and turkey with RARE dips into beef.
Also, I will up my fruit and veg consumption... More leafy greens!!
Also, I will restrict my soda consumption to one clear sodas (e.g. Sprite, 7Up, etc...), no more caramel-colored sodas (e.g. Coca-Cola, Pepsi, Dr Pepper, etc...), though I will mainly stick to water and 2% milk.
Also - in terms of exercising- I will attempt at least 30 sit-ups/crunches a night as well as every Tuesday and Thursday 15 minutes of arm work outs with weights (that gradually increase), just to lose the wings not to bulk up.
Also, I will strive for at least 2 miles of walking, jogging or running every fortnight - if not more frequently.
I will also limit my Caloric intake to 1,500 Calories a day at the utmost peak.

This blog was mainly just a place for me to square away my hopes and goals... So don't read to deeply into it.

Starting Point: 161 lbs, Sept. 20, 2008
Ultimate Goal: 130 lbs, June 1, 2009

Monday, August 25, 2008

Hmmmm

I think I'm going mad. I think that I think too much of my abilities. 78 books in 9 months. That's roughly 9 books a month. I mean, that ON TOP of the school bookload.

And I mean come on! FBI? Who was I kidding?? I couldn't do that. Not in a million years, not even.

Last First Day...

Well, today was the first day of my senior year of high school everybody!
UGH!!!
We, surprisingly, made it to school on time. So I got to see some friends before school. Met Mars's little sister Cassandra (spelling??) and saw a bunch of short freshies.
First period, Drawing with Mrs. Naif. She's cool, a little spunky. Possibly one of my favorite classes of the day. Class with Robyn! WOO!! =D We're gonna be painting, drawing and using colored pencils!
Second period, Economics with Mr. Vega. He is so awesome. He's like the lovechild of Jay and Mr. Anderson! But seriously, he's great. And I think he's a great mix of giggly and serious. And this is my second class of the day with Robyn!!
Third period, Trigonometry & PreCalculus with Mrs. Pedersen - YUCK! Possibly my LEAST favorite class... I dislike how she speaks. I don't like her dry humor. She's just ICK. Good thing about this class - Brant. I get to see him. So he just may keep my sane.
Fourth period, AP English Literature with Mrs. Casillas. It's ok. It's upstairs in room 911! That's pretty cool. I was so tired walking up those stairs that I am GLAD that they're building an elevator. That's gonna make life easier and dispel the crowds trying to go upstairs to their respective classes...
Lunch... Had pizza that tasted like nothingness. Talked to people.
Fifth period, AP Statistics with Jay Ramaswamy. This seems good. I love the textbook! It's got a fishie on it!!
Sixth period - open period. Got my ID card punched out to say I have 6th period open. Whatevs. Talked to X. He says we can still be friends. But I don't know. I mean, I would love to. But it's like he's just saying it to quell my emotions. Honestly, I'll have to think on it. Then me and Ju hung out in Jay's room... Pretty awesome.
Afterschool. Had to wait almost an hour in the heat for the stupid ass bus to get here. But now I'm home and happy that I'm not dehydrated anymore.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Books I Plan To Read This Year (Sept. 08 through June 09)

A Freewheelin' Time: A Memoir of Greenwich Village in the Sixties - Suze Rotolo 240 pgs.

A Lion Among Men - Gregory Maguire 336 pgs.

A Streetcar Named Desire - Tennessee Williams 142 pgs.

A Wolf At The Table: A Memoir - Augusten Burroughs 256 pgs.

Age of Reason - Jean-Paul Sartre 397 pgs.

American Psycho - Bret Easton Ellis 399 pgs.

Anthem - Ayn Rand 147 pgs.

Anti Christ - Friedrich Nietzsche 91 pgs.

Being and Nothingness - Jean-Paul Sartre 864 pgs.

Beyond Good & Evil - Friedrich Nietzsche 240 pgs.

Birth of Tragedy - Friedrich Nietzsche 96 pgs.

Bloodsucking Fiends: A Love Story - Christopher Moore 290 pgs.

Bonfire of the Vanities - Tom Wolfe 552 pgs.

Brave New World - Aldous Huxley 288 pgs.

Breakfast of Champions - Kurt Vonnegut 320 pgs.

Brisingr - Christopher Paolini 763 pgs.

Cat's Cradle - Kurt Vonnegut 304 pgs.

Catch-22 - Joseph Heller 464 pgs.

Choke: A Novel - Chuck Palahniuk 304 pgs.

Civil Disobedience - Henry David Thoreau 36 pgs.

Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister - Gregory Maguire 400 pgs.

Coyote Blue: A Novel - Christopher Moore 320 pgs.

Curse of Lono - Hunter S. Thompson 205 pgs.

Crime & Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky 576 pgs.

Doors of Perception - Aldous Huxley 192 pgs.

Faith & Treason - Antonia Fraser 384 pgs.

Fall - Albert Camus 160 pgs.

Fear & Loathing In Las Vegas - Hunter S. Thompson 204 pgs.

Fight Club - Chuck Palahniuk 224 pgs.

Fountainhead - Ayn Rand 720 pgs.

For Whom The Bell Tolls - Ernest Hemingway 480 pgs.

Galapagos - Kurt Vonnegut 336 pgs.

Girls Like Us: Carole King, Joni Mitchell, Carly Simon -- And the Journey of a Generation - Sheila Weller 592 pgs.

Glass Menagerie - Tennessee Williams 105 pgs.

Go Ask Alice - Anonymous 224 pgs.

Great Shark Hunt: Strange Tales from a Strange Time - Hunter S. Thompson 624 pgs.

Guy Fawkes: A Historical Romance - William Harrison Ainsworth 560 pgs.

Hell's Angels: A Strange & Terrible Saga - Hunter S. Thompson 273 pgs.

Idiot - Fyodor Dostoyevsky 578 pgs.

Island of the Sequined Love Nun - Christopher Moore 336 pgs.

Kandy-Kolored Tangerine-Flake Streamline Baby - Tom Wolfe 368 pgs.

Lust Lizard of Melancholy Cove - Christopher Moore 320 pgs.

Lost - Gregory Maguire 368 pgs.

Love, The Legacy of Cain - Leopold von Sacher-Masoch 187 pgs.

Marriage of Heaven & Hell - William Blake 84 pgs.

Mirror, Mirror - Gregory Maguire 320 pgs.

Mother Night - Kurt Vonnegut 288 pgs.

On The Genealogy of Morality - Friedrich Nietzsche 224 pgs.

Poisonwood Bible - Barbara Kingsolver 576 pgs.

Practical Demonkeeping - Christopher Moore 256 pgs.

Rent - Jonathan Larson 160 pgs.

Reprieve - Jean-Paul Sartre 464 pgs.

Rum Diary - Hunter S. Thompson 224 pgs.

Slaughterhouse-Five - Kurt Vonnegut 224 pgs.

Son of a Witch - Gregory Maguire 352 pgs.

Stupidest Angel: A Heartwarming Tale of Christmas Terror - Christopher Moore 320 pgs.

Things They Carried - Tim O'Brien 272 pgs.

Trial - Franz Kafka 140 pgs.

Troubled Sleep - Jean-Paul Sartre 432 pgs.

Twilight of the Idols - Friedrich Nietzsche 96 pgs.

Virgin Suicides - Vincent Eugenides 256 pgs.

Walden - Henry David Thoreau 336 pgs.

Wampeters, Foma & Granfalloons - Kurt Vonnegut 320 pgs.

War & Peace - Leo Tolstoy 1156 pgs.

What-the-Dickens - Gregory Maguire 304 pgs.

Wild Child: Girlhoods in the Counterculture - Chelsea Cain 256 pgs.

Without You: A Memoir of Love, Loss & The Musical Rent - Anthony Rapp 320 pgs.

You Suck: A Love Story - Christopher Moore 352 pgs.